Sunday, April 24, 2005
hEyAz peepz. went out 2day wif a few pple from NPS...went Kbox at cineleisure..i had a sore throat. Not minding it, i still sing my lungs out...tink i jus wan to let it go? Duno. Superficial layer on e front is my forte i guess. I can blend e surface n e real me together real well sumtimes. 2day was quite ok overall, jus hangin out wif those pple tt i m quite comfy wif. Din wan 2 even pick up JJ's call cos i dun hav e mood 2 meet him. Cant hide much ard him cos he might jus guess tt sth's wrong. >.<>
Haiz, i sorta expect tis but i duno..jus feels weird to hear it...its nt tt i dun wanna let go, but tink as u said be4, its nt e time tt matter, but e weightage we put on tt particular person tt is. So, yeah, aft yest wad we said, perhapz its a betta choice 4 me to accept ya as a fren? i duno...i shall try. Nv fail to leave me to wonder y e flame can jus go off lyk tt...tink its abt me too...doesn't matter to u i suppose now...f it..jus hate tis feelin cos i need to time to wash off everytink again..dun need to even start to blame urself... y we even got tt serious.. sheesh. hah. tink if tinks can b worked out, i m more than willin to change my priorities bt tt's...nvm...
Anyway, tis is a nice song. A song tt's been ard for a fairly long time but it nv fail to bore me too...my close pal lyks it too..keke
爱，很简单
忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你一种感觉
忽然间发现自己已深深爱上你 真的很简单
爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法抉择
没有后悔 为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我 喔～
I LOVE YOU 无法不爱著你 BABY 说你也爱我
I LOVE YOU 永远不愿意 BABY 失去你
不可能更快乐 只要能在一起 做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停 用最真诚的心 让爱变的简单
I LOVE YOU 我一直在这里 一直在爱你
I LOVE YOU(yes I do)
永远都不放弃 这爱的权利
如果你还有一些困惑 Oh No 请贴著我的心倾听
听我说著爱你(yes I do)我爱你
Goin to perth on e 3/5 to 7/5 with the NPS pple. Hope it will b fun. By den, hopefully u will fade away as sum1 special n return as a normal fren...good fren? ha...we'll c.
Hmmz....that's all for now..Ciaoz..
*My many committments n lifestyle is e cause of tis ending or tis expected ending leads to my many committments tt i haf nw...?*
1:42 AM
Thursday, April 21, 2005
Yoz, been wanting to blog, but always fall aslp be4 i can do anything (lan! i noe. >.<) aft virtuoso XII, i'm nw busy wif FOC, arts camp rehearsals and praticing guitar hard now for perth trip..its gonna be fun..will try make it a fun wan..=) Penelope is such a nice song..hope we can play it well...double notes will not hinder NaZ e cow...lolx.
Oh n NPS chalet was quite a success lar..tho' we cancel some plans after tt but overall it was good..thx to THOSE who's so enthu abt it. Oh..and mahjong is still such a nice game. Catty always c we play mahjong den grumble...lol...but yeh...e game itself is so interestin sia...c diana also watch us play until so intense den she learnt on e spot? lol. winning $ sometimes is quite a nice feelin too u noe..*grinz*..but tt's not e pt. =)
been goin back to sch so v often...tt's it lyk clementi is nth sia..lyk tampines lyk tt..lol..but quite fun lar..see i return for wad purpose..dun mind if its for guitar..lolx...and c WHO i m returning wif..ha...returning wif pple who can make mi luff and brighten up my day is nv boring..but with some pple who shows irritating, annoying and ridiculous behaviour tt cant be accounted for any reason or wadsoever, its S-T-U-P-I-D. lolx. but anyway, its e past le, everytink will b fine i HOPE.
Ok, i jus shun bian went to check my exam grades...haiz nt tt bad lar..shld say i quite lucky to b able to push my grades up wif e finals tis time..but tink i v ambitious tt's all..scored A's and B's tis time...nvm..hope next sem is a better 1. Anyway, wad can i expect when i nv even put in my best...lol...oh and some sicko guy from my class will b out from my class next sem. T'cher say its a 2 way tink, she see tt we cant comm wif him and he HIMSELF opted out...wad the..haha..much for e happy ending (class bonding?)...lol...nvm lar..his choice..bleahz...doesn't bother me. =)
later goin for check up...den goin out...darn..been out really every single day..and nv reach hm be4 11.30pm...sian diao...i miss my hm..arh.lol...
10:43 AM
Monday, April 11, 2005
yoz baby, still damn shag now aft slping for 7hrs aft yest nite's performance! Virtuoso Xll rulez! hek! Whoa..aft practising for quite sometime, finally we hav e showdown yest at VCH!!! =) Looked lyk a fool up stage but it was a gr8 experience. keke. Was arranged to sit in e front row for 1st 2 songs tt i m not familiar wif..and the last 3 which i m better...diaoz...fated wan..den fingers were trembling lyk wad lyk tt. -_-lll Den jer POH damn funny somemore...haha..couldn't find his conductor stick at 1st den make all e funny expressions den i buai tahan luff dere. Den next song he realized it was there but he din c den he lifted up e stick wif the triumphant look...lol.. the rest of the show went quite well lar i must say...hehe...lyk farruca at e end of show..hehe..luv e strumming..=)) aft tt cant go off wif tiff they all..nor wif mae they all..but hafta return back to sch...den aft tt decided to go eat wif NPS pple...went crazy aft tt..haha...den stayed till 1+ den took cabby hm..reached hm abt 1+ 2am...wana type more abt it but tink it will bore u all! lolx. took quite a lot of pics!! will all compile it soon! =)
Went for M'sia trip be4 tis too. =) Was an ok trip..haha...e students there all v re qing i muz say..haha...not stingy wif their applause lor..ehz...sometimes its a lil' too much...haha...applause at everytink u say? pengz! haha..went to 4 schs perform..den wanted go many places see see look look wan..but keep raining sia..grr...haha..but we managed to do sth v interestin in e hotel..we bought a mini mahjong set for abt $10, shared among us 4..haha..den go back hotel play..muahahah...duo luo? i duno..haha...but fun! Next time go any trip we can play sia..hahah....=)))
Gonna haf a busy wk tis week! later goin down for SAG. Tue-thur hafta prepare NPS chalet! Fri-Sun is e chalet itself..will b fun i guess! =) Argh...cant go out wif ht tis wk le! Pengz...kkz...betta call her n tell later...if not she say i PS her..whoopz. =/ make it up to her soon. Got quite alot of stuffs to prepare lyk cca fiesta n arts camp..hehe..but i still wan outing outings and more outings!!! OOh...suddenly remb..e perth trip..hehe..shld b fun! But i onli gal from guitar..sian DIAO! Why cant haf more pple goin? Hmrpz! Nvm lor..c hw lor..hehe..will try work on guitar songs too..hehe..if not go there v xun! wahahaha. ^^ aww..actuali wan work tis hol wan..but tink no 1 will wanna employ sum1 tt takes off-days 2-3 days a wk rite? lol..so? forget it. so paiseh, 1 fren waited for me go work wif her for lyk 1mth le..den now i cant go..oh yar..must call n tell her too..=SS hurhur..
k lar..enuff for now. if can i will post some virtuoso pics here..keep a look out! =))
3:04 PM
Saturday, April 02, 2005
Ahhh...wad a nice feelin to b able to blog wif less guilt again. Exams over today. Darn it shld've been over man long ago man! =P Let's review a lil' 'bout it 1st. Hek. [tis blog will b kinda long]
CB- Ok lar. generally can do. But so dumb to even choose e wrong qn. ha. Could've done an easier qn tt most pple did, which is on cell cycle...(givaway lor)...and me, being e smart arse, did e qn on DNA replic. and protein synthesis stuff on e back chaps which i m not familiar wif. ha. dun ask y, jus dumb. oh, and a 1 guy keep blowing his nose so loud & long tt i cant conc...haha..=S
OBC- ha. was easier than expected. personal opinion, set to allow us to pass e module decently. haha. dun bash me but tt's hw i felt. but den again, my chem isn't v strong so wadeva. haha.
Physio- easier than expected too. haha. shld say i haf got abit of luck there. I was desperate alr cos nothin was in my head..so i jus sorta analyse qns abit n picked topics n parts to study and left out e rest. haha. so its lyk a bull's eye or a goner case. haha. So i shld say i did it wif skill and quite alot i picked came out. haha. Was still worryin in e morn cos i onli remb so little. =X hah. But being e usual blur me, i can do e questions happily and be4 i knew it, my eyes skipped 2qns worth abt 6-8m! So careless! Din c! haha..diaoz..only aft i finished e paper, den i look thru e qns once den i saw it...den quickly scribble some stuffs. haha. wanted to stay thru' out e 2hr paper, but it was too cold inside..Brr..haha..so left early.
Anyway, after tis exams, learnt a few lessons. 1, dun wait till last min to study for exams. 2, dun b complacent(learnt tis many times..) 3, i cant handle stress well...wahaha. will jus panick and prance ard my rm and jus get restless. haha...now, there's another substitute, u all shld noe it, e guitar. haha..jus a tool to get some private moment. haha. Anywayz, e exams r over, regardless hw bad it is, e ans cant b changed and e marks will soon b set, so i'll jus hafta pray for e best. haha. Results gonna be out by 21/4/05. Be on a lookout! hahaz.
let's c, aft sch went to meet fren at mac as planned. Stayed till ard 2. Den i wanna go hm 1st cos wana refresh myself be4 meetin JJ in town. So cabbed wif her n she dropped me off near my hse. haha. den soon aft, JJ called n i took a bus down to suntec..haha..went to eat...yumyumz.. and watch son of e mask..lame show...dun go watch...waste of $, provided if u've got extra to spare..ha..nah..better option: gimme e $, i'll spend it wisely 4 ya. haha. Den slack ard, and went hm..haha.
sometimes its really quite frustrating if ur parents jus throw tons of responsibility on u and ask u to shoulder it isn't it? U might b e youngest family member, but now ur parents jus say it in such a way tt every single tink u do u haf to think about everyone in e family. Lyk hw issit really related sia...even u making simple decisions matters to e whole family? wad is tis sia? Haiz, mum jus threw loads of it on me. told me i haf lots to take care of, lots to work on for e family. Diao. Yes, parents will be parents..i noe..but its darn abit too annoyin yeh? getting grades orientated too..again..wad the...i m not some silly ass who can study all day n score beautifully for dem to c. I believe in moderation, in relaxation and doing things by gut. Even if it means it my grades are suffering n nt in tinking rite (or shall i simply put as i m not tinking e way u wan me to?)...somehw..yeah...but tt's nt e pt. I m a perfectionist at heart but i jus cant summon e energy alrite? wadeva... HAH. Cancerians are so prone to acting rashly cos we are so controlled by emotions, so dun ask me to tink rationally wif responsibility ALL e time. will get sick of it. haha..weird, to some pple, tis might b a form of moltivation n authority cos it makes dem feel significant in e family. Its a chance for dem to prove their place in it. But nah, doesn't apply to me at this point of time at least, i m too messed up. haha.
Ever caught urself in a scenario whereby u haf a fren whom u tot u always had a connection wif all the while suddenly tell u 1 day tt, "hey, i realized tt we r actually really v different pple." And for that moment, it didn't feel good at all. haha..i duno..think its quite disappointing somehow...becos its not as if there's not enuff understanding between both parties but the main reason being becos its either u've changed, he/she's changed or both of u. haha. We tend to change over time...pple we meet, tinks we do and individual experiences made us who we are now or least at any moment in time..and if things changes tear r/s between frenz/loved ones its quite a sad case. pple always say we accept others for who they r, but hw many really mean wad they say? And if u've always tot tt u two hav a common link tt made tis r/s special, den suddenly u realized tt its all been a kinda 1-sided. Hmmz. Haha..wad a pity.
WADEVA..jus some tots tt crossed my mind. Maybe not b of direct relevance to me tho'...hahha..tml will b in sch again. for drama rehearsal for m'sia trip and for guitar pract[yeah!]. haha...will reach sch at 12.30pm..yeah...so cya..!
*its hurting a tiny winsy lil' bit jus to even make it pass, but i'll try or...wait. We'll c.*
2:16 AM
